This year I completed my first year at university. That in itself was a huge achievement for me after putting it off for years. When I first got super poorly I decided I wasn't going to be able to do university, the thought kept me up at night with panic attacks and so I had ruled it out completely. Now I'm halfway through my degree and I've grown more than I thought possible in the past year and a half. I achieved my first overnight trip with the old university, ironically up to see the site of the new university and had an incredible time exploring manchester with one of my best friends.
I also decided to transfer universities about a week into my second year. I moved back to Stoke and decided it was no longer the university that was going to help me reach my career goals. So I managed to arrange to look at The University of Salford and was offered a place then and there. I was terrified and the anxiety was ridiculous but I couldn't miss out on the opportunity that was in front of me. I've made some incredible friends along the way as well as learning so much more than I ever was going to at the last university. I love it in Salford and I cannot wait to see where the next year and a half of my degree takes me.
I have made some fantastic memories this year as part of Chelmsford Community Radio. The station is my second home with my extended family and I feel so lucky to be a part of something so incredibly special. I look forward to the summer with CCR because it's a time of outside broadcasts; which are exhausting and hard work but also such a wonderful experience.
This year with CCR we had some incredible and fun adventures over the summer. I found myself at Essex Pride 2016, which is always by far one of my favourite events of the summer. It's such a colourful and accepting environment and I love working at the event. We had the pleasure of interviewing the lovely Stooshe this year and overall it was an incredible day. A small team of us also madly stayed up to 3am, 18 miles away from home in Romford for St Francis Hospice's Star Walk. It was an incredible evening setting up our broadcasting truck and watching hundreds of incredible women walking in the dark for an incredible cause. There is nothing more incredible than looking out over a sea of flashing bunny ears and thinking "this is my job and I love it." I was also lucky enough to attend V Festival 2016 as "Press" (SERIOUSLY?!?!) where I saw some incredible acts and met some people who are where I want to be in a few years time.
V Festival was incredible and I was fortunate enough to meet a couple of members of the band Bastille and band I've talked about a few times on the blog. They have been my favourite band since I was 17 years old and their music has done so much to help me through my mental health issues. From suicide attempts to panic attacks, Bastille were there and to have them standing in front of me was a little crazy. V Festival lead me to an actual interview with the full band in November. It was possibly the scariest thing I have done in my career so far. I think I was so worried about making a terrible impression because of their importance in my life and I wanted to put our radio station in good light with them. I was really proud of what I achieved and hopefully it is only the start.
This year I turned 21, I'm officially properly out of my teens and now scarily closer to 30 than I am to being 10. It was a weird week or so around that time, it was tough and sad and despite everything I still had a lovely day. It's not a birthday I ever really want to look back on because I felt so alone but it's taught me some valuable lessons about who I have in my life.
2016 was the year I came off my main antidepressants. After 5 years of being heavily medicated I decided I was beginning to feel too numb. I wasn't feeling like myself. I didn't feel like I was feeling anything anymore, I was numb. So at the end of August I just stopped, cold turkey and although the first week was incredibly difficult, it was the best decision I have ever made. I've had one patch of being heavily depressed since and although I get low patches it is nowhere near as bad as it used to be.
I've grown incredibly this year and although I am starting this year feeling quite lost and alone, I know that it's going to get better. If 2016 is anything to go by I know that 2017 is only going to hold bigger and better things for me hopefully.
Rebecca
xxx
I have made some fantastic memories this year as part of Chelmsford Community Radio. The station is my second home with my extended family and I feel so lucky to be a part of something so incredibly special. I look forward to the summer with CCR because it's a time of outside broadcasts; which are exhausting and hard work but also such a wonderful experience.
V Festival was incredible and I was fortunate enough to meet a couple of members of the band Bastille and band I've talked about a few times on the blog. They have been my favourite band since I was 17 years old and their music has done so much to help me through my mental health issues. From suicide attempts to panic attacks, Bastille were there and to have them standing in front of me was a little crazy. V Festival lead me to an actual interview with the full band in November. It was possibly the scariest thing I have done in my career so far. I think I was so worried about making a terrible impression because of their importance in my life and I wanted to put our radio station in good light with them. I was really proud of what I achieved and hopefully it is only the start.
This year I turned 21, I'm officially properly out of my teens and now scarily closer to 30 than I am to being 10. It was a weird week or so around that time, it was tough and sad and despite everything I still had a lovely day. It's not a birthday I ever really want to look back on because I felt so alone but it's taught me some valuable lessons about who I have in my life.
2016 was the year I came off my main antidepressants. After 5 years of being heavily medicated I decided I was beginning to feel too numb. I wasn't feeling like myself. I didn't feel like I was feeling anything anymore, I was numb. So at the end of August I just stopped, cold turkey and although the first week was incredibly difficult, it was the best decision I have ever made. I've had one patch of being heavily depressed since and although I get low patches it is nowhere near as bad as it used to be.
I've grown incredibly this year and although I am starting this year feeling quite lost and alone, I know that it's going to get better. If 2016 is anything to go by I know that 2017 is only going to hold bigger and better things for me hopefully.
Rebecca
xxx
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