Disappearance...

I've been gone for a little while and I planned to blog about my first year at university. Something I have clearly done when looking at my saved posts, that are half written and I can't quite remember where I was going with them. I'll look at them one day and figure out what was happening and what was going on. A lot of it is homesickness related but I have been doing the majority of my blogging work for the university. Which has been the reason I somewhat abandoned my own blog (I am so sorry).

Uni has been a great learning curve and a great experience. It's something I never thought I would achieve and to be sitting at the dining room table in my uni flat is still somewhat bizarre to me. I have been thrown completely out of my comfort zone and to say that I am almost at the end of my first year feels like one hell of an achievement. It's not been easy, I give it that, but I think that is what your first year is about. You get told all the time that everyone will be in the same boat and you brush it off, thinking how can anyone be as stressed as you are about the change, but they are right, you are all together in this next step.

My flat has changed incredibly since I started, we lost a few and gained some more and now it is the most welcoming and caring environment that I love coming "home" to every evening. I love this slightly new family that has been created and as the time moves on the more and more I want to be in the kitchen then hiding nervously in my room. I am accepted and loved for who I am by the people around me and that is the most wonderful feeling when you are so far away from home.

I have experienced so much. I've been out and experienced a somewhat normal uni life and instead of being completely overwhelmed it has been so fun. I love my lessons and being able to learn again has been so exciting. It's changed who I am but I am so happy that I decided to make the jump and to experience university instead of completely giving up on the idea all together. With all the rubbish I have to deal with, with my mental health I am so proud that I have achieved what has been such a huge achievement!

Rebecca
xxx